Hey folks…

how are you doing? I hope you are all fine.

lately, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with my feeling. *if it makes sense*

It makes me really hard to related to people or have other people to understand.

And I’ve been feeling so isolated and alone. I think my default is really bad. I tend to just close in, and harbor it all. Put all on facade. It’s really hard for me to open up with other people and trust people.

Honestly, i had someone before that i contacting very often. But i don’t know why it changes. While i need him just to talk with me, who i comfort with. Then we quite being apart right now. And i don’t know how and who i should talk about my insecurity. The feeling that i don’t even f*cking know how to process it.

I’m still figuring out my bad trust issue with other people. Cause I’ve just really felt disconnected from people, in this phase of my life. I’m scared, a part of me isn’t ready.

i know that i have to get comfortable with the unknown. It’s not going to happen in instant. It’s going to be a process. Over-time.

Thank you for reading this.

hopefully, i’ll get better sooner or later.

–Dearmariana–