Sometimes, when i want to make something, i am so excited to get it. Wohoooo.

Sprint it like driving a Maseratti with a great engine.

but.. i want to driving an old Mustang, slowly, and enjoy the trip. Open the window and feel the wind that touches my hair and skin.

Actually, that’s the thing that i personally want to mastered of.

But sometimes.. when i am too excited to stepping on the pedal, and start fast and faster. It is absolutely fun, spur the adrenaline.

Like.. wooohoooo!!!

But one thing for sure, if i forgot to control the brake. With a very possibility, i am going to crash the car in front of me or even lost myself. That’s cruel!!

So.. i learn to enjoy the ride slowly, and improve my fast. Adjust to every possibility good or bad, while i am driving my Mustang. (Honestly, i can’t driving for real. MDR)

Well, it is just my imagery of how i want to reach my goal.

Whenever, i am working on something that “AHAA!! *insert a lamp emoticon above my head*. I have this idea!”

My optimism and excitement to working on it, rushing so fast in my veins. But alsooo, on my way to working on it, i meet this fella named “Struggle”.

My pesimistic woke up and stop the rush of excitement in my blood. I feel desperate, stuck, and hopeless. The doubt of “Can i make it?” “Can i finish it?”. Those are the questions that echoing in my mind. Start with motivated and then demotivated. Cruel!!

I remember, my mom asked me this: (i guess it is also from a quote or something. Cmiiw)

“How do you eat an elephant?”

I answered “Ofcourse i can not!! I mean who the heck eat an elephant, cruel!!”

*i am just being-realistic-little-innocent-girl right?! Hahaha*

But, what my mom tried to say, if i want to make something big. Start with a small size. Take a bit-small-sizes at a time. I might be meet the daunting, overwhelming and impossible feeling. But it is just the art of what i am working on. It is okay to feel it. Rest. Find something that waking up your joy and continue to working on it when you are ready. Just don’t stop.

And yes!!! That’s true!!

Sometimes, i am that person who want a perfectionist thing. You know.. kind of top-tier quality. But if i focus on the result, the most athmosphere that vibrant with myself only feeling anxious. until i forgot to enjoy the process. I am still working on it, and have to learn (always will) to focus on the process, remember the process not the result.

I know, sometimes the fear of failure show up on-off.

But if i failed, is it that bad? Well i am pretty sure, i will be disappointed with it. But i can choose to learn from my failure than dwelling in it.

So if you are reading this and working on something. Keep going!!

Take it slowly but improve, and as always enjoy~~

Have a great day folks :]

–Dearmariana–