Hey Miss Baha, a.k.a Kak Bima..

I still can’t believe that you are gone. We knew each other not that long. I do feel, we befriended for so long, and get along pretty well.

We have not made our plan, travelling, movie dates, and girls night out. It actually hurts. The saddest one is you gone on my birthday.

Just whyy bitch??!!

I am so glad that i know you.

Thank you for being a friend, a great friend, who accepting me as the way i am. (I am still full of chaos and always will be).

Thank you for being the one who taught me to befriend and befriended with adulthood problems. Which i used to blocking it.

I am just a lost soul, the unknown, half of confusion and the pain.

You are right, loneliness can be hard. It makes me think that i will be alone forever. But it also can be empowering, fulfiling, and liberating. Actually, save me from wrong people and situations.

“You feel alone, everytime you are misunderstood. You feel alone, everytime someone you love walks away. You feel alone, when no one supports your dreams and visions. Just learn, how to be friend with the world.”

Thank you for taught me those brutals truth of adulting.

You will always be missed Kak…

–Dearmariana–

P.s

I am still here alone Kak..

Without your next advices for this adulting . But i am not dead. Yet. I sure can still change things.