Just me inside, i always adore the beautiful view from the high. Cause no one can deny how amazing it is.

But also just me inside that not let anyone come in, accompany for long and stay.

I struggle with someone who left me inside without let me know ” what’s the reason ” he left all of the thing, and when someone new come in, i adore the way how gentle he is. I don’t know about him alot. But i want to swim deep and dive in to know who he is.

It was great time. We spent the nights and talked a lot about all of the thing.

For me, to talk about family, it’s a sensitive part. But you shared it to me anyway. Not gonna lie, i feel pleased to know that. In simple way that you trust me.

By the time, I’m afraid that i will fall into you. Cause, i don’t know I’m ready or not. Because, you will go out and travel outside. On the other side, here i am again inside with myself.

I try my self to skip the day without talking anything to you for a while. In fact, it just kills me a bit. Cause I’m badly enjoy our conversation.

I know that you have someone. You also enjoy to talk with her.

Then you come again, but you already intertwined yourself with somebody else.

I said congrats with a smile, hope it didn’t look clumsy.

So i close the door with my hand shaking. It’s like i am in the capsule of the Ferris Wheels. My capsule stop in the higher spot, i can see beautiful views but i can’t touch it, i can’t enclasp it and also my capsule is shaking by the wind. It’s so windy.

But still… it’s beautiful, that i can see the views and i hope the wind will stop sooner or later.

Dearmariana

Xx